Home Alone

I'm home alone!  The sound of that is truly unreal!  I never thought I'd be here, alone, with nobody but me!  What do I do?

With three grown children, who are all driving now, off to work and sports, and a little guy at his grandparents for a week................well, what's a mother to do?  I have seven total hours 'ALL TO MYSELF!'.  I'm really unsure how to spend them.  I'm NOT prepared for this.  The worry of another brand new driver on the road with 'my' car, well, the uneasiness is a bit consuming.  I'm trying hard to focus on all the things I can be doing now, while they're away.  Things I don't often get to do with them home.  Bills?, no!, watch a chick-flick, better....(a luxury when u live with all boys!).  I did get one thing right though, I made them clean the house before they left today, knowing that would allow me some more quality "me" time.

Still, I'm left unprepared!  Of course there a million things I 'could' do, but I really want to be able to focus on me.  Without a vehicle at my disposal, my choices become limited. Still, I'm feeling the chick-flick and chocolate-chip cookies! (ooooooo, maybe just the dough!)  Reading sounds decent, but I know that I will not have time to finish the book this week, and I hate to have that nagging feeling of only a half read book eating at my already overfilled conscience all week long.  I could scrapbook for awhile, but that's a project I really like doing when I have an entire weekend, or several days off at a time.

Online shopping!  Oh, but that would make me cry later this week, and force me to work more overtime......better not, but it's a solid option if I find myself completely bored!  Although I do want to know I can trust myself to be alone with 'me'!  hhmmm.

This has got me thinking....I had better be proactive in 'finding me'!  I have just a year left with three kids at home, and just under two years left with two kids at home.  Then, it will be just me and one kid, I'm sure that will allow me more down-time than I have ever been used. I'll need to discover things I want to learn and do, things that more define me!  Maybe back to school will be back in the cards.  Or an online entrepreneurship I have been kicking around the empty spaces in my head.  I do want to spend at least one holiday, Thanksgiving or Christmas, serving the needy at a soup kitchen or the like.  It's been on my bucket list for while now. And BINGO!, I have always wanted to go play Bingo! bonus now, they're nonsmoking!  Ok, for today, I update my bucket list, give myself a pedi, watch a chick-flick and make chocolate chip cookies! And be better prepared for this moment when it happens to present itself again!  This glimpse into 'empty-nesting', glad to have, don't know if I'm prepared for it!